I really, really, hope some of y'all can relate to this. I would hate to think that it is only me! Ever since I was a kid this has happened to me. School was never my favorite thing in the world, so Friday's were always so exciting, and Sunday always made me sad. The start of a new week was coming... no more fun.
In college it was the same thing. I spent WAY too much time partying in college and not enough time doing school work... so weekends started either Wednesday or Thursday LOL. We would usually lay low on Friday, go at it again on Saturday, and then Sunday evening we would all stay in, do homework, clean, and get to bed early. I HATED Sundays. It sounds childish to me now, but it was always such a sad feeling.
Now as an adult, I get anxious on Sundays for all different reasons. The week is insanely busy. Being a mom, especially a single mom, is anything but calm and easy. I struggle a lot with time management but in the past few months I have had no choice but to get better at it. I work 10 hour days and spend about 1.5 hours a day in the car. Sometimes more. I have a child in daycare that needs my care, love, and attention when we get home. But fitting all that in along with making dinner, giving a bath, cleaning up at home, and getting her to bed by 8 sometimes feels impossible! I get frustrated so often, and have to stop and breathe...sometimes count...sometimes pray...to calm myself and try my best.
This is why i LIVE for the weekends. I miss Alexa so much during the week at work. I think about her all day and I am excited...literally every day....to pick her up from school. Now I am not saying that there aren't days where 20 minutes after picking her up I want to send her back to school lol... but I genuinely just miss my little girl. All the time.
Fridays are always a relief. I usually have a list in my head (and if I am feeling super motivated...on paper) of things I want to do on the weekends. There is rarely a weekend that all of it gets accomplished, but most of the time I do pretty well. This weekend I am proud to say I got a lot accomplished. It was a relaxing, yet productive weekend...yet Sunday evening comes and I am still feeling anxious. So I decided to google "Sunday evening blues"...and WOOHOO I am relieved to say I am not the only who experiences this.
One thing that helps me is going to church on Sundays. I have been in a rut lately.. and skipped church for 3 weeks. Which is something I haven't done in a long, long time. I almost did today but Alexa was really looking forward to going, so I went. I am so glad I did. It is amazing what joining others in faith can do for your spirit.
Alexa was such a sweet girl today. I spent a lot of time cleaning and she was such a big helper. She cleaned her room, helped me clean the patio and washed her bath toys in the tub. Then we did a little project she has been begging me to do for months. Her dad had sent her a "ferry garden" in the mail and it was this dome that you fill with dirt, plant the flower seeds and decorate with pretty colorful stones. She was so excited that she kept clapping the whole time. I just love her to pieces!
A couple pics from the weekend...
Taking a break from roller skating outside...
Enjoying some ice cream after working so hard on her room!
Lexa found a rainbow : )
OK...well that is it for now. Thank you for reading if you got this far!! xoxoxo
I am so glad you started your blog, I hope you keep it up because I enjoyed reading it :) You are definitely not alone with these "Sunday evening blues" I use to feel the SAME way (sometimes still do.) You are an amazing mommy and Alexa is so lucky to have you, things will get easier for you as long as you keep trusting in God. I love you!
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I am glad you started writing, Kelly. Sometimes writing down your feelings helps one get past the tough times. It's also good to look back on things that you wrote years ago and see how much you have grown. I know it's hard to motivate yourself to get moving on Sunday morning and get to church, but you really need to be there. One of the purposes of the church is to edify the believer; to build them up in the Lord. We all need that in our lives and apparently your spirits are lifted after you have been around your church friends. that should be a sign! You are a great Mom, just keep trusting in God for your strength.
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This was sooo sweet Kelly! youre such a GREAT mommy! i honestly dont know how u do it. i am in awe that u manage to get that much accomplished. Keep writting because i love to read it!xoxo
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ReplyDeleteThank you! But I wish I knew who you were! LOL
ReplyDeleteIt's crazy because I feel the same way. Great blog and Lexa is a beautiful little Princess
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